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Ignorance may bliss but knowledge is power.

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Evey, I had to edit one of your posts, even though moderators try to stay out of Freestyle. You cannot solicit, sell, buy drugs, etc. on this forum!!!

You have mentioned previously that you keep getting banned from different forums. Perhaps you bring some of your troubles onto yourself. As it is, I am officially warning you that your post soliciting drugs from others is not allowed and can be grounds for banishment.

The other thing that is obvious is that you're headed for an alcohol addiction on top of the codeine. You have said that you drink a couple bottles of wine every night. You are using alcohol to dull your discomfort over having to give up codeine. You're obviously posting while intoxicated this evening and it's not the type of action that wins you supporters.

I suggest you go sleep it off.

Amy

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I believe you have been misinformed by your tutor. He cant put deadlines on peoples addictions. Telling you you will be rid of your addiction by thursday? Thats crazy.

If thats what you mean.

You need to learn to challenge all your excuses and ask yourself where you will end up if you keep going down this path.

Good luck im pulling for ya!

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Hi Eve,

I'll be honest and let you know the reason I don't post in your threads aside from the fact there are just so many of them. It seems like you are still very much in active addiction. You might be taking suboxone but your mentality is that of an addict seeking a numbing any way you can get one. To numb the pain of life.. we've all been there. The problem is that I am not sure you're really listening to any of us or capable of hearing/ processing what we're saying.

From what I can tell, you were forced into "treatment" before you really even knew you had a problem. I'm not convinced you even realize or truly care you have a problem. You say you are scared and want help but in the next breath you curse your parents for taking away your comforting codeine like a child. That's fine, again, we've all been there. But we're all here because we've been to places we can't possibly go again, or we'll likely die. We all have hit out "bottoms" and there is no return. I don't believe one has to hit their bottom to get help but one DOES need to truly want help in order to get better and change. I'm just not sure you're at that place yet but I hope you get there, sooner rather than later as I believe you've mentioned a child several times. I hope your baby is looked after or sleeping when you go on these wine/ anti-depressant/ codeine binges. For the love of god, just make sure your baby is ok.

We're all listening, I promise. But if you really want help here, you're going to have to show that you're ready for it, or we all are just spinning or wheels.

Good luck

I know Im new but Ive read every post from the OP in last few weeks and ive actually had the same dilemma regarding if I want to post in them or not. Like tiny said its hard to want to give a detailed thought out response to a post when you are almost positive there will be 3 more flooding the forum in a matter of hours saying the same things just worded in a different way. Ive had the same feelings as you before as well OP, I was not forced onto sub treatment I made the decision myself but other than that Ive had lots of those thoughts about just wanting to say screw it and just go back to getting high early on when I was getting clean. One thing I want to add that might help you get more responses and this isn't meant to offend is that when you post one thread after another taking the victim stance after awhile people just have the gut reaction that they dont want to try and help you because it is basically saying "I am not at fault for my addiction I am a victim" and until an addict excepts accountability (something I had to do as well and it took some time) they arent gonna make much progress.

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Hey Evey,

Well that post sounded sincere. And that's the right attitude to have. Stand up for yourself, take control of the situatiuon and you will receive all the support you need. Everyone here wants you to be successful, but you have to help yourself first and foremost. And that post sounds like a step in the right direction.

We've all been right where you are with the drugs pulling us one way and us trying to get out of it's grip. You just have to fight hard for your life, and you have to WANT IT more than anything else. You can do this Evey, I know you can.

Keep that same positive attitude and take it one day at a time. You are so worth it I promise!!

Hugs,
Karen xoxo

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I'm not sure who said that to you, and it certainly is harsh and worded wrong, but it's just the truth. Our truth anyway. You may think that an overdose could never happen to you but it's likely if you continue down this path. ESPECIALLY when you're mixing a bunch of different pharmaceuticals and alcohol. This is a recipe for disaster and while the original poster may not have worded it well, I'm assuming they were just trying to get your attention. No one wishes your daughter to be without a mom.

My Mom died from an overdose one month after my third birthday. It happens. This shit is real.

I'm glad you're opening your eyes and getting help for yourself. You'll learn new things everyday if you pay attention and listen to what others say, who have been down this road. I started on codeine/ hydros & norcs.. I then ended up shooting whatever I could in my veins. The progression doesn't take long at all.

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Ignorance may bliss but knowledge is power.

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Ignorance may bliss but knowledge is power.

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Ignorance may bliss but knowledge is power.

Don't one day, SAY TODAY!
There is always a solution to the problem