I've now posted this on /r/IAmA and /r/trees and mods shut it down both times. Since nobody could talk to me or see my thread I started looking into my moment of peace and discovered beyond any doubt that what I felt was complete synchronization with myself and the world around me. Please tell me everything you know.

The meaning of life as I see it is simple: survival. People always try to overcomplicate it but at the end of the day we are nothing but animals and only our advances in technology separate us in terms of intelligence. We as humans still have a very primitive intelligence in relation to our potential. So let me tell you everything about me so that you can understand in full my vision to help the world I love so much to reach it's potential.

Very brief back story because everything will be explained but just to give you a reference point: I'm a 22 year old man living in Canada who smokes pot and has experimented with most mainstream drugs (MDMA, weed, acid, shrooms, cocaine, nicotine, tobacco, alcohol). I've always heard rumours about drugs bringing people enlightenment and while I didn't always buy into the theory, it's always what I hoped I would recieve out of my experience with drugs. After experimenting with most of these drugs in a minor capacity it became clear to me that my 3 favourite drugs were weed, shrooms and acid. I always found that they were the drugs that gave me the most interesting and meaningful high but I could never really pinpoint why until last weekend at Shambhala Music Festival in BC. I'll let somebody who's reading this who has also been explain Shambhala because I could go on for hours about it and I truly enjoy hearing about other people's experiences.

Anyways at Shambhala, I had a series of vivid hallucinations on shrooms and acid on back to back nights. On shrooms it was nothing more than a complete calmness and serenity with myself that I have never experienced before. I thought it was the closest thing I was ever going to come to a vivid "life affirming" trip and I was so happy and thankful. I started running through a checklist in my life of the series of happy events in my life that had led me to that point and the short version of that list is as follows: got into school for exactly what I wanted (botany), have a plan for after school (be among the first people ready and knowledgable to grow weed when it first becomes legal), work a job I enjoy with all my best friends, met the girl of my dreams. Before the trip I was already sure of the first three so the only variable was this girl I met so I was ecstatic to have that sort of confirmation that I'm doing the right thing.

Until the following day when I did acid with 14 or so of my closest friends. I had been told that if you take shrooms the day before acid it will mess with your acid trip so I wasn't really going in with any high expectations. I didn't mind at all actually because I had one of the most meaningful trips of my life the night before and nothing could ruin my mood. Fast forward to about 6 hours after my acid and I'm still not feeling much so I just assume my friends were right about the shrooms. I figured if I cant feel the acid I might as well smoke some weed so I rolled a joint. After smoking that joint and getting hit like a truck by the acid as a result, I went to brush my teeth. As soon as I put the toothpaste on the brush the acid kicked it into another gear and I couldn't even stand anymore. My friends were all right there so I let my best friends know that I was really fucked and to keep an eye on me in case I really start losing it. I had been through some anxious trips before and was a little worried about the potential for this to go south, but I chose instead to steer right into into it with the confidence I had found from the shroom trip the night before and what followed was the most amazing hour of my life.

My moment of truth on acid was everything it was on shrooms except immensely more vivid. I was able to build off of ideas that had crossed my mind from the night before and well beyond. It was exactly like Bradley Cooper in limitless. I was able to access and completely sync up the thoughts that float around my head consciously with my entire subconscious and entire nervous system. I was able to look through every memory I had ever had from a 3rd party perspective. I was able to observe these memories at an incredible rate and I was able to see the lesson that needed to be learned from that memory. I was able to rid myself of any distractions and clearly process my opinion on each one of those memories. What was more is I was able to justify why my opinion was either in favour or against a certain lesson. I was able to see everything as a series of opposing forces and I was able to see where that memory falls on any spectrum of my choosing. I know basically jack shit about Yin and Yang but I glanced the first paragraph on Wikipedia and it sounds like exactly what I experienced (so please tell me more about it). Everything that follows from here on out is a combination of things that I've known to be true my whole life and things that I have discovered to be true very recently. This is only my opinion, I am not trying to preach at you or tell you that this is the way, I am only trying to show you the way as I see it in order to help you all enjoy the peace of mind I have right now. I believe that the only way we can achieve our potential is collectively. All I ask of you as you read on is to listen to everything I say with an open mind and to not be afraid to be brutally honest with yourself. You will be significantly happier in the long run.

The biggest thing I learned is how to overcome my anxieties and my sadness. All my life I have been afraid of not being good enough. I have been so blessed and fortunate to be able to be raised in a world without pain, but the fact of the matter is pain is the only way to truly learn. I was always told that I could do anything I wanted, but I was never really taught to forge my own path. I worked hard and my parents taught me all the right things, but I never really had too many independent experiences. When I was looking through my brain the only memories that came up to me were from experiences. There wasn't a single memory that came to my mind of somebody telling me something. Everything I know I was taught by the people I love the most in the world. My parents and my family in general told me everything I need to know, but my experiences with my friends are what have really made me understand everything that they've ever told me. The simple truth to success is this: love yourself. There is not a single person in the world quite like you. How will you express yourself? Every experience in your life is a lesson and life is just one big experience. Follow the clues that your subconscious leaves because it knows you best. To know yourself completely is to master yourself and to master yourself you must master your subconscious. If you are in complete control of your sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems you are in control of your fight or flight reaction. If you are in control of your fight or flight reaction, then you control the release of stress hormones into your brain. Disclaimer: I have only studied Biology at a grade 12 level. I am by no means an expert, this is just my theory.

I see the ideas that race through my head in everybody. The people with whom I relate the most and the people I respect and admire the most are unsurprisingly the people I feel most connected with. I think it's safe to say that this is the case for everybody in the world. The beauty of love is that it is a complete connection of the body and mind. It is total euphoria and I felt it in every way I ever could have dreamed during my acid trip. I was able to pinpoint what personality traits I admired and disagreed with in all the people I am closest with. I learned their lessons through their stories and I aspire to be the best combination of all of them.

To me the human mind is a puzzle and the only way to complete it is collectively. I know for a fact that at multiple points in time, this knowledge got into the wrong hands. Once power is in the wrong hands it is very hard to get it back (Lord of the Rings is a great trilogy all about this, ASOIAF has taught me countless lessons as well). Darkness has had the power for far too long and I know that I have the steps to bring it back to the light permanently. I can't tell you everything because I've learned the hard way that that is a shitty way to learn. The hard way is the only true way to learn.

My experiences with drugs are what taught me all of my lessons the hard way: I have an aunt who battles a cocaine addiction; I lost my grandmother to lung cancer because she smoked and last but not least I have lost friends to suicide, drug overdose and drunk driving. Drugs have helped me get a reference point for my spectrum of Yin and Yang. Note that it's Yin and Yang not Yin vs. Yang. Everything happens for a reason, the two forces balance themselves out. There are only two extremes in my mind, power and love. Everything in this universe falls somewhere between those two extremes. It is up to you to decide where everything stands, but don't ever get too comfortable on your spectrum. Be confident in your morals and your direction, but always have an open mind towards learning more about yourself and the world around you. One of the things that holds us back is that people talk too much and listen too little. I have always been a shy person. Prior to this experience I was only really ever able to truly open up around my friends. I had constant anxiety about what others (particularly my parents) would think about me and I would lie in order to cover up painful truths about myself. I have always felt that the only way to truly conquer my anxieties was to find my true path in life. The only way to discover your true path in life is through constant self reflection and a burning desire to be the best that you can possibly be. This heightened level of consciousness is reached in 7 billion different ways. No two paths are the same, nor will any other path ever be quite like yours. You are literally the only person who will ever be on you're own path, so stop at every crossroads and ask for directions, if you don't it's easy to get lost. If you aren't willing to open up to the world around you and ask questions that make you feel vulnerable then you're never gonna be sure of yourself. It takes a village to raise a child and no one person can find this path on their own. Reddit has taught me a lot over the years, especially to see the good in people. I see people on facebook and other social media who do everything we do here but for all the wrong reasons. Narcicism and greed run the show over there whereas here I see nothing but love and support. That is because we all feel safe behind our anonymity. I always felt safer being in the shadows than risking getting burned by the light and I know that those same anxieties are inside of everyone, some people have just mastered them better than others. The people I know who are the happiest in the world are the people who are most sure of themselves and the only way to be sure of yourself is to embrace your anxieties and face them head on to learn more about yourself. I think with this knowledge we can all live life in the light.

So open up to me about your pain. Give me a chance to hear your experiences and empathize with them in order to connect it to my own experiences. If you are open and honest with yourself and me I know I can help you find at least some of the answers you are looking for.

TL;DR: You're missing the point.

Proof: I have no proof. You have to decide for yourself if I'm being genuine and honest with you. If you are genuine and honest with yourself it is easy to see through the bullshit around you. Let me teach you how to find this peace by telling you as much as I possibly can. I'm probably gonna do something like this on a different topic every week so please keep asking me questions and telling me your stories. If you are in a really rough place please do not hesitate to message me. I want to hear everything you need to get off your chest and offer an outsiders perspective on how you might be able to help yourself feel better.

Also I'm gonna write a book and use it to lay out my entire ideology in order to use it as a springboard to become the next Prime Minister of Canada. I don't yearn for the power of the position, I yearn for the respect that the position demands. I believe I can use the power of social media in a positive way to help push my perspective to the farthest corner of the earth in order to help people see a different perspective on their own existence. Sometimes that's all it takes.

Edit: I've looked more into Taoism since the mods have been reviewing my lack of solid proof (there is solid proof it's in your heart. decide for yourself if I'm being genuine with you). I have never been more aligned with a viewpoint as I am with Taoism and that is only after reading one article. I didn't know about Taoism prior to this other than a very loose understanding of Yin and Yang. This article gives a good concise explanation of the mentality: forge your own path