As a falsely diagnosed mental health patient who "recovered" I have run the gamut of female demonising and ostracising. Now I am at a place where I don't tolerate their nonsense, but where I want to be is at a place where it's just amusing and funny and can be shrugged off.
As an example, there's this girl from work who's about a 6, but she goes heavy on the makeup. She seems really friendly, good personality all in all, and I believe she's a bit into me. Anyway she invites me to this party so I get her number, then as I was having some work friends over last night I think "why not" and invite her along too. I actually regret that I did. We ended up alone in the car a couple of times, but she just wasn't making any sort of real conversation. I mean don't get me wrong, if I brought up a subject she was pretty forthcoming, but she wouldn't ask about me at all, and really the attitude was like "impress me, make me laugh". Given how heavily I was rejected by women when I run into this I just shut down. I don't care if there's a possibility for sex, because if I'm being totally honest here, I'm too hurt to put my neck out again when I can clearly see there's an entitlement attitude.
Most women are going to have this entitled attitude, especially given that I live in Toronto, but what can I do to loosen up and just start building on my game? I mean I've been traumatised, I've seriously been hurt time and time again but I think if I can't loosen up and game even this girl then I'm not in a good place.
It didn't help that by the end of the night it was her, me, a gay guy and a young feminist sympathiser. She said something like women have it hard, that they don't make as much as men. I said to her no they really do make as much, so she says yeah but babies, women have babies and don't get money. Then the feminist sympathiser is all over it talking about laws that need to be changed and I'm just cringing and checking out.
I'd like to be the guy who can game girls but emotionally I'm blocked. I make friends just fine with guys, no issue there, but the experience of being treated like a dangerous monster because someone said I have a mental health issue has been ingrained in my mind, and I am way too defensive.
ここには何もないようです