Hi,

I suppose I'm preaching to the choir here, but I would like some objective opinions regardless.

I'm an adult male. I have been diagnosed with both ADHD and Asperger's syndrome, for which I take medication. As you might have guessed, women hate me, and I hate women.

When I was 5, my parents divorced, and I went to live with my mom and older brother. Ever since, they have made me endure an awful lot of both mental and physical abuse, for which I'm under psychiatric observation now.

You wouldn't believe some of the sick, vicious shit these people have perpetrated on me. Needless to say, this has left me with permanent trust and self confidence issues, even after therapy.

My brother's a fullblown, violent sociopath. He regularly beat me up and basically enjoyed making life hell for me. When I was 13, while I was reading a book, he entered my room, pinned me down on the bed, took a pair of scissors, and started cutting large chunks of hair from my head, laughing like a cartoon villain, foaming at the mouth. My mother then punched me in the face afterwards once she saw what happened, but didn't even consider disciplining my brother. Did I mention this was the last day of the summer vacation, right before I went to a new school?

She also dated violent psychopaths that made life HELL for me.

Anyway. I have tried to 'forget' about it, as society expects from a man. But I can't. I want to settle the issue by receiving acknowledgement that what she did was outright abuse, but she refuses to give me acknowledgement. She uneasily attempts to downplay it as 'unimportant'.

I do not accept this anymore. I simply want this woman to admit, nothing more.

She is completely, totally, utterly unable to do this. The situation has been escalating dramatically, and I'm prepared to escalate it further until she admits that she was abusive.

Of course, being a woman, there's no way to have a rational, calm, mature discussion. As soon as I verbally corner her, she starts coming up with the most fucked up arguments I've ever heard anywhere ever. She simply doesn't know how to face responsibility, and even when I catch her lying red-handedly, she'll attempt to redefine the meaning of 'lying'. She'll do absolutely anything - and I do mean ANYTHING - to avoid owning up.

So, what is your view on this? Am I right in rocking the boat? Should I just 'let things be' and pretend nothing happened?