This is a new account. Want to get this off my chest. It's a long story. Mods please don't remove it.

Let me cut straight into the story without any bullshit. My mom and dad have been happily married from more then 24+ years(well, you guys know how happy marriages are).

I first thought that my dad was wrong and abused my mom everyday. This was my opinion of parents during childhood.

Then I discovered MGTOW and consequently, TRP.

I understood how women manipulate men. Looking back at it, I realized that my mom nags all the time. She compares herself to relatives and always argues with my dad that he's a loser. So, I thought my mom was a typical woman and my dad's life was ruined because of marriage.

However I wasn't satisfied. I tried to look deep into their past and tried to understand them from their childhood (yeah, my mom and dad were neighbors from when they were like, 5 years old).

My questions are " is my dad really a looser?" and "is my mom a typical woman who nags all the time?"

My dad accepted defeat from when he was a kid. Well, some people have these personality complexes where they PROJECT and try to convince themselves that they are great (and even act like it) but deep down inside they know they accepted defeat. My dad was one of those guys. Similarly I discovered that my mom was a typical entitled woman.

So you guys are wondering.. how did they marry each other? Well, my mom fell for my dad. He projected himself as an alpha male and acted like one. My mom fell for it. Obviously he proposed her. They had me even before my dad had a real job to maintain the family.

So after their marriage, the first 5 years were fine. Then my dad went full beta mode. He stopped growing in life (I assure you it's not because of my mom. It's just what he is. He never had the balls to take risks in life). So my mom started nagging. My dad kinda accepted defeat most of the time but fought back once in a while. That's when my mother cried abuse and complained to my grandmother (you know..the blah blah blah). Looking at this emotional manipulation, my dad fell deeper into himself and became an alcoholic. He stopped loving himself and started finding approval in others. I knew my dad was a looser when he spent his 100% of his yearly income on a LUXURY car just to boast among his friends when his debts are ridiculously high.

{{{He couldn't leave her because we live in a third world country where divorce = shame. }}}

So, finally I concluded that all women are kinda similar in their thinking. No exceptions. I even concluded that some older men like my dad are REAL DEADBEAT losers who need approval from someone to understand their worth(not only women, some men are also like that).

TRP wont work over the long term. This is the reason why. Projecting yourself as an alpha male when really deep down side you're a loser will not work. On a short term, you can get women to like and worship you but over the long term, you are what you are.

This is why I have no interest in women. Even though I'm young compared to you guys, all I care about is doing my job and saving money to buy houses. I love solitary life. My parents hate me for taking no responsibilities.

Counter arguments: Typical counter argument might be that my dad and mom CHANGED after marriage. NO. I'm 100% sure about it. My mom was an entitled woman even before marriage. My dad was a deadbeat looser from high school(he is (still) good at acting alpha.) I still don't know why they married. Maybe my dad thought " why waste time and energy when we got a beautiful woman next door". Mom was really beautiful before marriage. Now she's just wrinkled and chubby like all other typical older women.

I still don't understand them. They lived long enough with each other. I don't care about them anymore.

They ruined my life . Seriously, the only thing my dad taught me was how to play video games. I really hate him so much. YOU WANT TO KNOW THE WORST PART? He wants me to take a job right out of college (I told him I want to study something I love) and help him pay his massive debt. I told him I am not interested because he was a looser and he should learn to take care of his finances. He then abused me with all sorts of bullshit like "I don't think you are born to me" "Your mom shouldn't have given you birth" and other similar bullshit that brought tears. He then laughs at me for not being a man and handling myself. That's when I got REAL MAD. THAT'S IT. I decided they are not worth anymore to me.

Seriously guys, who buys lavish luxury items and spends all his salary on himself and then takes on a ridiculous amount of debt. My mom even asked him not to buy that car because it's costly. (seriously, my mom has a better common sense than most of the women). After all this shit, you know what his argument was? That he took on debt for the kids and they are responsible. I looked at his finances, his lifestyle, his expenditure and I know that's not the case.

Now, I dropped out of college because I couldn't handle this stress anymore. I started learning and working towards my passions. I currently am going through a stage where I have no money. I feel embarrassed to ask him money. So I am working slowly and possibly by January 17 I will have enough money to cover up all my basic expenses and live a normal life.

I was suicidal and almost cried everyday at first but I read all articles in this forum. I prepared a notes and read it whenever I find myself depressed.

I will make it guys. I just want to escape from this bullshit drama. I am alone without friends and no one to care but in fact, I am psychologically happier than what I previously was.

I just don't give a damn about all this bullshit anymore. I just wanted to get this off my chest and share my story here.

Thank you MGTOW community.