I have over the last year, adopted the Mgtow philosophy and I would like to share my thoughts and experiences to try to help others or to gain insight into my own process of introspection.

Before I begin, I will apologize to people reading this who are upset about the major focus on Women. I know that a lot of Mgtow’s do not like that and that people have been spending too much time discussing the negatives associated with women, rather than the positive aspects of the Mgtow lifestyle and philosophy. Personally I think that one cannot discuss the one without the other, because one of the main points of the Mgtow view IMO is the freeing of one’s self from the burdens of societal expectations placed on men largely in the context of male/female relationships.

I won’t bore you with the grizzly details of my love life, but I will try to cover them quickly so you can get an idea of where I am coming from. My first love cheated on me and honestly I was such an inexperienced simp back then that I totally believed her story about him knowing that we were dating and that she didn’t have any feelings for him and didn’t invite this behaviour.

Spoiler alert, not true.

And I have to tell this part of the story but before I do it I have to throw myself on the mercy of the Mgtow court, I was young and inexperienced and I honestly believed that men and women were supposed to be treated equal and not differently on the basis of gender. I actually would have let her cheat on me, as long as she didn’t get herself seriously involved and stayed committed to me.

Unfortunately, her way of doing this was to act like a big whore and put on a disgusting public spectacle for everyone. All I can do now a lifetime later is look back and laugh and shake my head at how naive I once was.

In college I had a relationship with a woman who was a bit older and making decent money. After about a year she told me that she wanted me to dump her because she could not find a good reason to dump me. She said that I was a good man but that she wanted someone who made other women jealous of the fact that she was with me and they were not. She told me that her mother had married a man like me but that was not what she wanted. A good view into the inner workings of the feminine Psyche.

I was briefly common law married. I was starting to think about having kids and she lost interest. We got along mostly fine but she was never happy and complained about pretty much everything. We went our separate ways but I got lucky on that one, I could have gotten taken to the cleaners.

My last outing in that department was when I met a cute girl who played video games and seemed to really like me. We went to bed together and I was falling for her and let her know. She instantly got cold and told me she didn’t want to see me anymore. Skip forward a year and all the sudden she starts contacting me again, wanting to hang out and get together. At first I was confused but then she dropped it on me, that she wanted to have kids, sooner rather than later in her words. Again I throw myself on the mercy of the Mgtow court, but I was actually, considering it. I didn’t thank god and spoiler alert, guess who just had a baby?

I am in my early 30’s on my own and I was starting to reevaluate my life, where I had been and where I was going and what my goals were and how I was going to get to them. I began to think back over my life and I realized that the relationships where I was the most happy were the ones that were not really relationships at all. It was the ones where we just went to bed together a couple of times, those are the ones that I still have on Facebook and those are the ones that I still occasionally interact with.

Lessons learned.

I am today focused on living my life and reaching my goals. The people that I had in my life who are no longer there I will always love and have affection in my heart for, but I did my part. Today I understand that as a man you need to look out for yourself and that while it may be sad, the truth is that, like the old men always told us, women are nothing but trouble.

I think that I myself am currently in the midst of the red pill rage, but the truth is I have always had a lot of inner anger about events in my life and although that anger is still with me I think that I am finally starting to let go through my understanding which has made great progress since I have discovered Mgtow

There are a lot of things I would like to discuss with you guys, but this is long enough already. Honestly when I look at the Mgtow community, I see a lot of very intellectual guys who have really done the legwork on getting the philosophical underpinning of this down. But I also see a community full of guys who are willing to open themselves up and discuss their most closely held ideas and opinions about things. I see a community of guys who are willing to share their most intimate and personal life experiences for the benefit of themselves and others and I am proud to be a part of it.

TL;DR: Awalt, be a man and go your own way.