I had a serious relationship with the girl who 'was the one' or whatever and to exclude all the details, things went stail and when we brokeup, its like I never existed.

She was ultimately a shallow cunt.

I have this irrational desire to want to have a girlfriend to give a shit about me, but after going on multiple tinder dates with TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE women, I have realized this is a waste of time.

I can get laid from the occasional prostitute, but how do I get this desire for an intimate relationship out of my head?(intimacy isn't irrational...but in an age with feminazi's, it is clearly irrational)

I want to feel 'whole' without a girlfriend and to be completely honest, its very difficult to make friends here because my area is essentially a retirement community..yea.

1. So how to get the idea/fixation out of my head?(gf)
2. How to make friends if there is a lack of compatible friends in my nearby area?(some people say travel but I don't drive and can't afford a car now, so it would be public transportation)

I know the second part isn't mgtow but I don't know where to turn and it would just mean allot if I got practical advice.

Btw, everything I said here is 100% honest.