Since I was a kid, gaming was my life. I spent every waking moment in front of a screen, because I loved games so much and to this day I've never known the touch of a woman because I was always pathetically obsessed with video games.

Now I find myself developing a personality and becoming a functional, mature member of society and it terrifies me. I remember I could spend entire weeks playing a single game without getting bored, but now, after only an hour or two with a game I find myself thinking "Why am I doing this? I'm not even really enjoying it. There are thousands of things I could be doing right now to enrich my life and the lives of others." I guess I just don't know why this is happening. I always loved gaming but now I feel like I'm growing out of it.

What do I do? How do I rekindle the love I had for being a dysfunctional social reject with an an addiction to consuming media I don't enjoy? How can I regain that crippling inability to realistically relate to anything outside of fictional toys and diversions for children?

Thanks for reading.