I'm honestly not sure if this is worth posting (or at the very least, worth posting here), but I'll give it a shot. Who knows, it might give me some inspiration. I'll include personal information, but it makes no difference to me, as this is a throwaway account anyways.

I'm currently 25. I'm looking for a career, but I've found nothing that interests me. When I was 16, I had my second cancer, and ever since then, I've just felt disconnected. Working decades and making a ton of effort to get shit I don't need or even particularly want no longer felt interesting. When I officially became redpilled, it came as very little surprise. I always had a good sense of fairness, and it always seemed like there was a discrepancy between what I was told was true and what I observed. Ever since taking the pill and learning that my second cancer had made me infertile, I've felt little to no interest in women, and basically completely crossed out the married life with children from my aspirations.

I graduated from high school with very high grades, and from college in a pre-university science program (which are a thing in Quebec, Canada) with high grades as well. I spent some time in a field of science at a University before switching to Computer Sciences after realizing I had little interest in it and couldn't make a career of what initially drove me to that field, only to realize that Computer Sciences did not interest me either, after spending time working as a software analyst. I did not graduate from University, and as my college degree is mostly worthless unless I get a Bachelor, I essentially only have high school education. I tried joining my country's coast guard, thinking that I might have finally found something worth spending efforts on and worth fighting for, only to realize that it was essentially useless, after spending 6 months at sea. We get very few icebreaking calls, very few search and rescue calls, and are essentially mostly spending time repainting and cleaning ships while waiting on buoy-tending season. As it was not what I expected, I couldn't actually get myself to put enough efforts into it, and I left.

And this is essentially where I find myself. I have little idea what to do, as mostly everything seems pointless. While on ship, I actually considered occasionally how much simpler my life would be if I just jumped in the water while the ship was in movement, but then thought that they would probably not believe that it was an accident and declare it a suicide, which irked me somehow. Would have been even simpler if the first or second cancer had killed me. It's what I expected to happen at the time.

I am an extremely fast learner. I am very good in mathematics and physics, and knowledgeable about chemistry and many other fields of science. I am very skilled with computers, but do not want to spend my life programming. Dealing with hardware and their issues, or software issues in tech support is perfectly fine. I am skilled with most Microsoft Office programs. I am perfectly bilingual, in English and French.

I just want a job where I can go work, get a good pay, then go home and do whatever interests me. I am not against the idea of working for weeks and months, before going at home and having weeks to myself. I am not against the idea of joining the military, but hesitating to do so because I do not know if I would be able to care about their purpose and thus become willing to make all required efforts to succeed, once I become more familiar with it. I am not looking to necessarily make in the six figures, as I don't plan on having a family and just want my peace of mind.

I posted this here because I don't know what to do, and I tend to think that the people on this subreddit are more likely to understand what it is that I feel. For nearly a decade now, I've seen the people around me and my society make so many retarded decisions that I can barely feel lingering affection for it. Practically literally the only honest feeling I've had since the first cancer has been apathy, if that can even be considered a feeling, mixed with the occasional disgust, anger and the rare subdued amusement.

I'm just trying to find something to do with my life. I don't necessarily expect to hear any life-altering advice here, but comments or suggestions are definitely welcomed.

For all those who actually read through the entire thing, thank you. I wish you all the best in your own lives and the pursuit of your happiness.