I was brought back down a peg last night. But there are positives to it, that is only sinking in this morning.

Things have been going great. Sex is up. Compliance on her part has been excellent. I've been dishing out morcels of beta support when I felt she needed it. BJs have been a real measuring stick for me. She swoles me often. I'm getting attention and compliments on my physique in front of her. So good stuff.

Now I know she's in the PMS window. So I've been measuring her behavior with that in mind. I actually look forward to shark week, cause i know I'll be getting focused BJs and cum in her mouth. But last night was a bit of a bump for me.

We are about to have sex. I like the light on. She always resists due to her body insecurity. I always push cause I like seeing her. This time she is sharp about it. I whip out my dick, and direct her to blow me. She makes comment "wow, you are high maintenance." This irks me. She is arguing that I've been spoiled with too many BJs lately. True, I'm getting lots. So lets get lots more. I tell her my new bod requires daily maintenance with a cocky grin. She goes at it and then i fuck her good, grab a drink of water. I come back, still a bit miffed about her behavior and decide to play with it a little and guage deeper. I start moving in for a second round. I get a NO.

Now i never go for a second round. Mothers day was a first. I fucked her in morning then pushed for BJ in evening. That was awesone. I felt good. My testosterone is growing with my lifting. Great measuring stick. So tonight is another example of this. But she gets cold with me. I push through the soft no. She asks "are you kidding me? " to which i laugh. It was gutteral and heavy. The echo off the walls startled me. I'm still moving in and she goes HARD NO.

Staring at her with a neutral expression, she blurts "I'm satisfied". I bark a laugh again saying, and if I'm not? She asks if I'm kidding. I laugh again. I'm actually finding this funny. She asks why I'm laughing. I ask her "you don't find this funny?" The situation is satiracle to me. She is dubstruck. So I shake my head in condisending disappointment maintaining a smile, roll over and fell asleep. I was not butt hurt. I knew I would eventually get what I want, just as I have with everything else. And if not with her, then the relationship is not conducive to my needs and I'll have to move on. Easily said, but fundamentally true.

So. I'm excited now. I'm getting physically attractive and I know through social proof that I'm awesome, besides, I really like me. My requirements are climbing and I'm unapologeticly stating my expectations. This isn't going to happen overnight and yes I will have to work to get it. Just as I have this far. But proof of concept has been realized, I've simply pushed the maker further into her territory.

What's next. I need to maintain current levels of awesomeness. Keep at the gym and improving myself. My social activities have waned the last 2 weeks because of family member illness. This would have contributed to her shitty attitude toward me last night. But I'm back in the saddle and planned my weekend thick. In fact, i was debating to keep saturday night open so i could spend time with her, but this incident helped remind me that she didn't quite earn it.

This report is a bit of a ramble, but it was important for me to share.