I've been here for a couple years now and it's changed everything.

In my late teens/early 20s, I was one of those girls who was fairly easily gamed. I don't have a high n-count and was always too career-focused to ride the CC, but I fell for some things I probably could have avoided if I was more aware of what was going on. Discovering TRP made me panic at first- what do you mean I'm already halfway done at 25? My parents still encourage me to focus on my career and my passions (they married when they were both 30) and don't seem to think I'm in any hurry. Thanks to TRP I've realized that I'm much better cashing my chips in now, while I still have the maximum options available to me.

I found a slightly older guy online who has all the same interests as me. You guys would call him a beta- he's incredibly sweet and nurturing. He has a small following on Twitch streaming video games. He's 5'8 and used to be fat, and over the past 2 years has lost 60 pounds. He's still chubby and you'd give him about a 5.5/10. But I don't see a chubby nerd with glasses and a double chin. I see a dude who's worked his ass off to get in shape. I see his huge biceps that are the product of dedication. I see his commitment to his job working for network security, and to the students he teaches online. Because of redpill, I don't see some chump that my friends would overlook at the club. I see a guy who's on his way up, whether or not he has a girlfriend while he does it.

Me being a RPW and him being a chronic beta has done interesting things for our relationship. I ask him where he wants to get dinner, and he gives me a sappy look and says "anything as long as I'm with you." which is hilarious and sweet and slightly repulsive. But rather than rolling my eyes and dumping him for an 6'2 alpha, I smile and encourage him to think for himself. Instead of running away, I recognize that the impulse is my fault. I'm used to being treated like shit or left questioning a dude's motives, and that is what's built attraction for me in the past. All of that is wrong. I've seen too many friends' relationships crumble because they're all in them for the wrong reasons. Everybody's eyes are shut. Nobody knows why they're really attracted to each other. I've seen too many girls cheat with Chad. I've seen too many guy friends get in great shape and dump their increasingly-chubby girlfriends. They're all just so unhappy.

Being a beta, this guy talks to me honestly. Really talks. "Tell me when I lay it on too thick, okay?" I say yes, and I do. We fucking talk to each other. And I genuinely appreciate that rather than seeing it as a sign of weakness. I'm listening, and getting better at listening.

It's taken me little by little to cool down on the idea that I'm going to be someone important, or that I will be with someone famous or cool or well-known. I tell myself daily that that's a fallacy, and I'd rather set up for the future than be the sad 30-somethings I see on film sets, spending hundreds on botox and liposuction to compete with girls like me right now.

Could I fuck hotter guys? Sure. Do I want to? No, because I'm an enlightened RPW that knows I have an awful lot to lose and not a lot of time to capitalize. The guy I'm dating now is not going to morph overnight into someone my friends will try to steal (though he does appear to be progressing in that direction), but I don't care in the slightest. I'm not going to dump him for a hotter guy, I'm not going to divorce him and take half of his shit, and I'm going to take advantage of my currently high SMV to nail him (or someone similar if this one doesn't work out) down when the time is right.

I don't pretend to have it all figured out, but I know I'd be a lot worse off if I hadn't found TRP. So thanks guys.