So i am starting to notice a pattern i am not really comfortable with yet. In my usual set i managed to grow quite a bit in the last year thanks to TRP, and i kinda enjoy it way too much. Lately i have noticed, that without strict intentions i pick on a certain person just to mock them, and i kinda love the fact that i can actually make people butthurt from time to time, but i feel some kind of disgust or pity that i can't really describe either (i have been in the same position as my targets not so long ago for too fucking long)

Should i just kill this kind of behavior? Is it fine as long as i maintain a balance? What if one day some smart-ass motherfucker like i used to be stands up spitting sensitive information, just like i imagend i would do? Or this need is just a part of phase i am experiencing?