I was so horny when I first met Eric and the idea of the camera really did turn me on. Since he had puled it out at our first meeting it always seemed a natural part of us. If you read earlier in the blog you can see how shocked I was about my reaction to seeing myself and how turned on I was. I did not like my boobs in the first video which is one of the reasons I decided to get them done. I thought they looked like limp socks after breast feeding two kids.
I also had a history of anorexia when I was younger. I had it really bad too, so I have always have had a problem with my body image. Seeing myself on tape made me realize I did really look skinny. Its different than seeing yourself in the mirror. In general, I thought I looked great and it turned me on to feel that way about myself. As time went by I realized I was too skinny and the photos and video really helped me achieve a much more positive body image. I feel at 47 I am in the best shape of my life.
Very soon the photos and video start to change too. As Eric worked with me to uncover my sexuality, I became a muse to him. He got more interested in photography and videography. He had done some really cool stuff and I will be excited to reveal it to you.