I've slowly, over the years, been dating "down".

It started simply enough. I was going out with all these girls my age. Oh my God are they absolutely horrible. I've been insulted, to my face, by these train wrecks. Had one actually say to me, "I thought you'd be bigger"!

Lmfao!!!

I stood her up! Deborah! She texted me a bunch of times. "Nobody has ever stood me up before!" Go cry alone in your room bitch. I've been stood up many times. Get used to it you post wall busted single mother. You're worthless.

Fast forward two years? Just fucked with a 29 year old tatted up ballet instructor. And, hey, sure I'm a dirt bag. Been running my degenerate game on 19 and 20 year olds. A nineteen year old girl gave me her queen size bed, since I lost everything, 100%, in my harsh divorce rape. Amber. Fucked her while her Asian boyfriend played league of legends in the other room. I'm about to go to sleep on the bed where this tiny loser took her virginity.

I was posting on the okcupid sub at the time. They introduced me to the red pill. I was posting my real experiences and they kept calling me a red piller. I didn't even know what that meant. What does that even mean?

Red piller? Dating outside of the n-7/range?

But hey now. Just today? I'm 35 and just today had a 16 year old girl tell me she loves me. Yes you heard that right. I'm running my game on a 29 year old ballet instructor who sent me this, verbatim:

"I don't know what's going on with me. I said I had sexual feelings for you, but it's way beyond that. It's way beyond "horny" or "turned on" or fantasizing about a stranger. I'm in a constant state of arousal that hasn't quit since whenever this started - has it been a week? More? I don't know.

I've had to start wearing panty liners just because I'm constantly wet. I haven't been able to sleep, hardly at all. I'm weak and exhausted, barely functioning. It takes me hours to get to sleep at night. Then a few hours later I wake up, and stay awake. I wait for a reasonable time to get up, do some chores, write you an email, then distract myself for the rest of the day until it's time to repeat the process. I can't concentrate. I can't write well. I can't work. I think I'm getting sick because I've had so little sleep. My head hurts and feels foggy, my throat is sore. I feel nauseous constantly. At first, just here and there. Now constantly. I'm so tired right now my chest hurts. My hands are shaking."

I told this slut I was going to turn her into my FWB. She said to me, "nobody can turn me into a FWB".

I could. But she's a busted slut and why bother? This bitch is 29! And she was a fucking prostitute, straight told me, so what value does she have?

I've just gone down and down in age. Put your artificial constraints on age. All these girls want to fuck me. I fucked a girl off of reddit, from okc sub, Nicole running your sex blog? You recognize me bitch?

Why the fuck would I ever marry you? But thanks for inviting me to your latest sex party so you can try to get some more of this dick. Busted slut. Enjoy your cats while you die alone with your $500k a year businesses and sex trips to Thailand. You can tell me more about the male hookers with their dick implants. Little boys....

We live in a degenerate world.

Right now?

Now?

I'm 35 and running my game on a sixteen year old virgin, who will turn seventeen next month, and who " loves me". Sick. Sick.

This is all sick.

If I can I'll marry her and put some white babies in her.

If not? Well that slut Erin, ballet instructor, covered in tats, and so fucking desperate, is sending me messages about how she is so horny she's going mad for me.

And my options never end. Even though I'm so alone, so lonely, that I'm going mad.

It's a sick sick fucking world. KYE.