“I respect trans people, but I would never date one.”
The myth of supporting trans people but never letting yourself love one.
This is one of those posts where I know a few people are going to come out of the woodwork and say “THIS IS ABOUT ME, ISN’T IT JENS!?” And no, it isn’t. But yeah, it totally is. Like nearly every example I talk about on this blog, each theoretical person is a conglomerate of many people with whom I’ve had similar experiences.
And I do this intentionally; I don’t mean to call one person out. I’m here to call everyone out–all y’all. It’s not meant to be taken personally, and I don’t even see it as passive aggressive. I am genuinely trying to use real examples, altering them a little for confidentiality and clarity, to talk to you about what’s up with being a trans ally.
The above, unnecessary introduction is meant to soften the blow I’m about to make. I’m going to talk about something controversial: dating a ~trans person~.
I’m also probably going to talk about sex a little bit so if you’re like ttyl that’s fine. But I think this is important.
So I’m on OkCupid, right? And if you’re not familiar with OkCupid, it’s a dating website where you have a profile, and you are matched with other profiles based on some filters and the questions you’ve answered. You can mark each question with the answer you’d give, obviously, and then the answer(s) you’d like a potential mate to choose.
There are questions that really have no bearing on a relationship, like “Are you the oldest in your family?” or “Do you like country music?” (okay some of y’all hipsters may find that to be a deal breaker, idk).
And then there are more serious questions, maybe about politics, maybe about sexual preference, etc that really can have a serious impact on a relationship. You can also rate the question between not important and mandatory/very important, so it has more/less bearing on your ratings with other OkCupid users.
Real example: I have answered the question, “Would you date a transgender person?” I have answered it Yes, and I have it marked as the potential mate MUST also say yes, because, duh. It’s not going to work out otherwise. I also have it marked as Very Important for similar reasons.
All the time, I come across profiles of people I know, and not to be a freak or anything, but I look for this question. Would they date a transgender person? Often, people avoid the question entirely and just don’t answer it. That’s fine. But the ones who do? Almost never do I see someone say YES to that question unless they are trans themselves.
So I come across a profile this week of someone I used to know quite well. I should have just left her profile alone, but whatever, it’s the internet. I look for my signature question. She’s answered it. Not only does it say she’d never date a trans person, it says she’d never date someone who WOULD date a trans person.
You know what I think when I see that?
You must think I’m gross.
You must think I’m gross.
You must think I’m so disgusting you wouldn’t even go out on a date with me, let alone kiss me and tell me I’m worth it.
I’ve had discussions with people, too, who say to my face, “Jens I respect trans people but I would never date one.” This is soon followed by something like, “they’re just not my type.”
What
isn’t your type, exactly? Explain it to me. Is it that I don’t have enough facial hair? Is it that I’m not very tall? Is it that I can’t take care of you or make you feel loved? Is it that I don’t have a dick?
Is it that you don’t see me as a man?
Look, I don’t want to date this friend I saw on OkCupid. I don’t want her to date ME. I want her to find love or whatever it is she’s looking for and be happy. But to see this, from someone who may consider herself a trans ally–this is devastating.
What is it about every single trans person within the dating pool that is so repulsive you won’t even respond to my message or go on a date with me? Let’s pretend that I was the man of your dreams. Now–oh, I was born with more estrogen than testosterone. “It’s a no-go, Jens! I don’t date trans people! But I totally respect you though!”
I’m struggling with this, but I don’t think you can have it both ways.
I don’t think you can be a trans ally and say you’d never be with a trans person of your orientation.
If you’re into men, and you’d say you’d never give the time of day to a man if he’s trans, how is that not completely laying a blanket over all transgender identities and invalidating their expressions?
When you are attracted to men and you’d say you’d NEVER date a trans man, you make me feel like less of a man. I’m not man enough for you.
I’m going to be real with you for a sec–if you are a cis woman and you are into dudes and you’d never date a trans dude, you are MISSING OUT because uhhhhhh as a proud owner of a vagina, I know what’s up. I’m not tryna be weird, I’m tryna be honest: cis dudes have to be taught (if they are even good students). Trans dudes? Yeah. Uh. We know already.
Anyway, I guess I can’t speak from the perspective of a cisgender person, but I remember as a kid thinking that trans people were weird or gross. I was conditioned to think that! Not even by anyone in particular, just the media, whatever. So in a tiny way, I get it. But that doesn’t mean it’s okay.
And there’s something to be said for preferences. Maybe you’re into brunettes. Maybe you’re like me and mostly into unattainable, beautiful women who will never date you. You can have a taste, you can have a type. But if you’re into brunettes and you met a blonde who otherwise met all of your criteria, would you turn them away?
No, hair color and gender are not the same. But I hope you understand what I mean.
You cannot call yourself a trans ally, even a trans sympathizer, even a neutral trans bystander, if you swear off dating all trans people.
It kills me when you say that. It actually kills me.
I almost didn’t transition because I thought nobody would ever love me again. That’s the truth. And you know what? People love me, but not very often romantically. And I guess it’s whatever, but it’s too bad because I am NOT gross. In fact I’m pretty charming and GREAT in bed so y’all can FUCK OFF. Oh and I smell good and have great hair. I don’t really like sports all that much but I can totally assemble an IKEA bookshelf if given enough of a pep talk beforehand. I’m not all that masculine but I’m also not an arrogant asshole. I’m not so bad looking, even for a ginger.
Basically, seeing trans people as one collective group of gross people is one of the worst things you can do for your queer friends. Seeing them as the individuals they are and loving people based on how they treat dogs or if they are feminists or not is way more appropriate and relevant.
I shouldn’t have to say this, but trans people aren’t gross. And sometimes we die because this world isn’t kind to us. We could use more people who won’t swear us off like we are untouchable, and more importantly, unlovable.
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Author’s note: See
this follow-up post
for further commentary.
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