Summary

The following is a collection over the past two weeks demonstrating the importance of a few of the main theories on sexual strategy. Also provides another confusing glimpse into the mind of a hamster and the dumb shit women come up with, especially once they’ve been “Alpha Widowed.” Warning, long read.

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Body

Walking down the road on my journey to enlightenment has had me teetering back and forth between anger, acceptance and defeat. To the point that I realized that I shouldn’t make monk mode and excuse to not interact with women. That I have lost 30lbs and even though I’m not being close to my goal, I have made leaps and bounds from where I was. The only thing left to do is go out into the world and be uncomfortable while I grow.

I broke up with a girl I had been seeing for a month or so because I felt disgusted to feel like someone’s trophy lay. The sex was bad, she was a HB5 on a good day, and even though she was about to hit the wall, spent money on me and was great to have conversations with. I didn’t see this going anywhere. So instead of being Mr. Nice Guy and trying to subtly hint that we should break up or try to get her to break up with me, for the first time in my life I dumped her without any explanation. I didn’t owe it to anyone other than myself, and I do not need to validate my actions to anyone. I went no contact and despite her numerous and desperate attempts for “closure” I maintained frame and ignored her for the most part. Enter plate number 1.

She was a girl I had briefly started sleeping with before moving back home to get my life back on track. She is thick, but not in a fat way. The type of girl that has dem tig’ol’bitties, and ass and legs for days. Spends time in the gym most of the week and is a collegiate athlete getting her school paid for. I shot her a text after becoming single and she was immediately ready to see me as soon as possible. Though she was gone for the summer, she had made sure I was her first stop when she returned. Cool, no big deal. I at least have something so I have some kind of option. She made it back in August, stopped along the way and we spent the next 2 days going at it like rabbits. Everything seemed like smooth sailing until someone from my male space made it his goal to show her how terrible I was and tried swoop.

We have a group chat for our team, and this is another place the 48 Laws of Power reared it’s vicious head. Even in your male space, there are those that want what you have and are willing to try and pull it out from under you. Sadly, you have to be aware of those in your circle, even among some of your friends. Like an idiot, I made a comment about this girl that wasn’t that bad from a male perspective, but for a girl it’s a whole different story. He showed her what was said and this upset her. He spent the rest of the night trying to win her over for a quick pump and dump before leaving to basic. Unfortunately for him, that isn’t always how the world works. She got mad and her night spiraled downward which lead to me getting the silent treatment for two weeks and ignoring my invite for the trip. Enter girl number 2.

This girl is cute in a country kind of way and she had a boyfriend. She is a friend of plate number 1 and we have been good friends for a while, plus she winged me in to some of her teammates. We had planned a big camping trip for a group of our closest friends to meet up for a three day weekend and she was coming out to join. The limited interaction we had was for logistics and to make sure everything for the trip was planned and she knew how to get to where we would be camping. Then a few days before the camping trip she shot me a message saying, “My boyfriend is being a dick. I can’t wait for this weekend, I need a drink and a good time.” Immediately I took this as her way of setting up plausible deniability for whatever happens that weekend, because “I was drunk and don’t really remember it. I just kind of happened. I promise I’ll never do this to you again! Don’t you love me?” The only reason I drew this conclusion was that I’ve picked up heavy do me vibes from her before I started sleeping with her friend, and she also asked me a day prior to that how long my longest relationship was because she was “curious.” I figured she was testing that waters and preparing to jump ship if I was available. Over the weekend my friend would not leave her alone. She had slept with him before and you could tell she wasn’t interested by her body language and the way she kept denying his awkwardly drunk and numerous attempts to escalate. For me it wasn’t a big deal because I like plate 1 and as exciting as a new sexual conquest would be for me, I didn’t want to lose plate 1 right after recovering because the sex is great.

The Climax

So after giving me the silent treatment and ignoring my invite for the trip, I decided to cut my losses and keep building that depth roster. I figured in a week when I’m in town that she’ll either message me or ignore me. So I went on with my life. It was fun while it lasted. The day of the trip came and I had made it into town. I had not been in town for five minutes before I receive a text from plate number 1. She wanted to know if I was still going to be in town, and if so, if I wanted to hang out with her. I attribute this to that fact that I did not double text her, come off as clingy or try to apologize. It also didn’t hurt that she’s told me numerous times I’m the best sex she’s ever had and doesn’t know why I make her so wet. Just that I do. She said she was mad at first because she thought that I liked her and she got confused, then followed it up by saying, “Well I did say different hoes in different area codes. So I can’t really be mad at you for saying I’m the girl you smash while in town.” Her teammates were pissed at her for going to see me, but like it’s been said before, if you’re high enough value the hamster will make excuses for you. I spent the day before the trip with her, and she stayed with me the two days I got back before I had to leave town again.

Since plate 1 was squared away, and despite heavy do me vibes again on the trip and kino from my friend who came camping, I figured it is best to not be shared by friends since there is a high chance they would figure it out and could end what I’ve got going. Then again, it could end pretty well. Haha So everything went good for the trip. When I returned to the city and had service again, I was greeted by a plethora of texts from my ex. They started out with her trying to invite me out for her birthday, asking to drink with me, inviting me to fuck and then threatening to fuck someone else ending the weekend by informing me she had her first threesome with another chick and a dude. That while it was happenings, “She knew I wanted a threesome with another girl and kept thinking about me.” I find this funny and annoying because it comes off as desperate, but for some reason women do the dumbest shit trying to make you jealous. Hoping you’ll get jealous and come back to them. While we were camping and she was blowing up my phone, she had her friend blowing up my friend’s phone. He showed me since I didn’t have service. We laughed, he turned off his phone and we got back to our weekend.

The whole time she was trying to make me jealous, I was sleeping with another girl, had a date lined up for when I returned home thanks to stepping up my tinder game. A strong abundance mentality I believe is what stopped me from being jealous. I had other options so it didn’t matter to me what she was doing because I was already on my way enjoying myself once again. Then again, I don’t know why hearing about an ex and another chick awkwardly sucking another guy’s dick would want to make a man come running back to you; but I guess that’s for the BB’s to understand. Now when I interact with women whether it be on tinder or in person, I express my sexuality, I never apologize and I do what I want to for fun and invite them. I always have more than one plan so I can choose. This helps with outcome independence. It doesn’t matter if they decide to join or not because I already know I am going to enjoy myself. It has been awkward at first and very counter-intuitive, but when you start experiencing these things in real life and not just simply reading some fan fiction mental masturbation stories, it really makes you hungry for more. Not just in the realm of sex, but in overall life. My workouts have gotten harder and I don’t ever want to settle with being above average in life.

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Lessons Learned:

• 1.Maintain frame, never apologize for your actions. If you do you will come off as clingy, desperate and unattractive. Was told that if I had kept texting plate 1 she would have never hit me up.

• 2.You don’t owe anyone an explanation. Do what makes you happy and the women will start to chase you.

• 3.Experience is the best teacher. Step out of your comfort zone and believe in the theories here. Your confidence and boldness will show you a world you could only jack it to.

• 4.Watch out for those around you. Even in your most sacred of male spaces there are those that will white knight you to take what is yours. Always be on guard. Better safe than sorry.

• 5.Women will make excuses for you. Be a top male and women will rationalize away anything they didn’t like about or whatever made them mad.

• 6.Be good at sex. If you can be the best sexual partner a woman has experienced, they will come back. They will do things with you sexually that other men may not ever experience in their life.

• 7.BBC. Bitches Be Crazy. Embrace it. Accept it. You don’t need to understand why they do what they do, just that they do it. When you realize this, women are no longer complicated. They are easy to understand.