During the last few weeks I couldn't help but notice a growing trend here at TBP where people decide to abandon the whole pill thing either temporally or permanently, usually because of what can be boiled down to getting fed up with everything: Alphas, Betas, AWALTS, CCs, HBs, Frame, LMR, Dark Triad, you name it. Now I'm not here to cheer any of you up, I'm not here to prove that most terpers out there can be saved since I myself am beginning to lose faith in that notion. I'm just here to show my appreciation to everything that this sub represents.

Around 5 months ago I wrote a couple of text posts explaining my story as a former member of The Red Pill and how it can negatively affect someone's life:

• What makes a redpiller

• TRPers and rejection

I'm not gonna go more into broad detail about my background; I think these posts covered it enough. However I will say that around the time I made these posts I wasn't totally off The Red Pill. Don't get me wrong, I was actively trying to get over my redpillian ways; however the damage TRP has done to me was so immense that I still had some of the mentality internalized within me, as you can see in these comments:

• Comment #1

• Comment #2

So while I wasn't quite a redpiller anymore, I still didn't have what it takes in order to call myself a decent human being either. I was at a really grey area where I didn't really belong anywhere, where I didn't have an alliance. The Red Pill, as horrible as it is, gave me a sense of belonging; it gave me the feeling that I wasn't alone anymore. I don't regret leaving it at all, is one of the best things that happened to me, but there were times when I seriously considered going back to it for the simple fact that it made me feel like I was a part of something. Something terrible mind you, but something anyway.

In that confusion The Blue Pill lighted the way for me. The more I read the posts and the comments in here the more I felt that I was gaining back pieces of my good self that I thought TRP had forever destroyed. TBP managed to help me clean out a good chunk of junk from my personality and even allowed me to let my greatest qualities shine even more. Reading TBP prompted me to learn about things that I never even began to contemplate before like the importance of consent, the awful prominence of internalized and casual sexism in society, the real meaning of the wage-gap, date-rape and rape-apology, sociopathic behavior and its impact on emotional abuse, how to be socially adept without the need of "frame", ACTUAL human attraction, accountability and self-awareness, what feminism really wants to accomplish (GASP!) and it all made me realize how extremely wrong TRP was this whole time.

I know most people see this sub as nothing more than a satire of TRP but it really has so much more power than that. The Blue Pill has taught me more about reality, social interaction and self-improvement than The Red Pill could ever hope to. The Blue Pill has become my Red Pill of sorts, to put it bluntly.

As I'm writing this, I can say from the bottom of my soul that I now feel like a part of this. TBP made me a better person. But have I turned over a new leaf? Have I awakened into a fully fleshed-out incredible human being? No. I didn't. I'm still far from that. I wish I could just say that I left my Red Pill past behind but the truth is, despite all I've accomplished thus far, there are many subtle Red Pill cues hidden inside my subconscious that may take at the very least a decade to get rid off. Even if I eventually fix myself... There are things I've done thanks to The Red Pill that I can't really undo. I have indirectly ruined people's lives. That's not something I can amend, not in a lifetime...

Everything I could voluntarily and consciously improve in my life has been improved and will be improved even more. And I'll always be thankful to this sub for that.