I'm writing this because I don't know where else to go. My therapist can't figure it out, and my doctor says my levels are normal...
Over the past year of HRT I've stopped caring about life and I've felt completely disconnected from reality. Before HRT I had a ton of zest and generally felt happy/motivated outside of gender dysphoria. Nothing has changed in my life except for HRT which feels like it has drained the happiness and motivation from me. I'm always tired and I haven't experienced happiness/joy since starting. I know a lot of you have had the opposite experience, which makes it super frustrating.
I am so confused because from a mental self-actualization standpoint I feel better than ever, but now I always have a gut-wrenching feeling of depression/anxiety/apathy. I've stopped caring about pretty much everything and it's affecting my relationships/work.
Is this common? It's hard to describe, but everything seems unreal and it constantly seems like I'm day-dreaming and generally disconnected.
Side note: I am on .5mg Avodart and 6mg estrogen. Sometimes when I don't take my AA I feel better. Really makes me question my gender identity issues. Sigh.
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