oops just slapped a rape apologist in the face during a party

i need to stop slapping abusive people

he wasn’t like physicall abusive like shane was but he told me that my response to being raped (aka flinching when a drama teacher said “every actor needs to be able to imagine being a rapist” back in october before i got less flinchy was INAPPROPRIATE AND ATTENTION SEEKING 

so i slapped him in the face tonight becaue this girl was telling me (and had never told anyone) that her ex used to rape her while she was sleeping

and this gay guy came over and was like “wait let me solve this” and tried to just make her laugh and idffuse the situation and i was like go away for a sec we should discuss this and not just luagh it off

and she went and talked to him and i was like k ima chang emy tapomon and pee and you can go talk in bathroom when i’m done w peeing

and then i came downstairs and this dude i had the fight with a few weeks back from my show who told me  i was attention seeking for having told the teacher “i was abused” when he asked why i loopked so upset after making the comment about acting ok being raped

he was like “you are trying to keep jess from everyone who can help her you have been a problem since you got here”  i literally gave him a kiss and said i hate working with you but you’re very talented patrick when i got there like jesus the whole convo about rape started when i tried to clear the air and then he was like i hate working with you you talk about your rape blah blah so inappropriate 

and i was like “SLAP”

which was bad because it put me on his level