Well I found out that BFF is exhausted by my constant attempts to hang gout with her and her kid. She just wants to be left alone and even responding to a text is too much for her. She told all this to our mutual friend.
It’s fine. I don’t know what it’s like to have cancer. So I won’t comment to that.
I guess it’s just….what about me, you know? What about what I need? We have been friends since we were 12. She knows me better than anyone else. I need things from her as well. I realize that’s selfish but I can’t be the giver all the time. No matter what.
I think the bottom line is that in my life I make others a priority and I am literally NO ONE’s priority.
So I guess I am in a bad head space right now and if I get super obsessed with AoU or something just roll with it cause I’m avoiding reality.
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librarianpirate said: clearly you need to come to Aurora and hang out with us.
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johnstamostimelessbeauty said: I’m sure the illness makes her want to alienate herself but I don’t believe for a second that she would really want you to stop reaching out. I’m sorry love, so hard when you reach out and it gets slapped back.
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littlekingsassmouth said: Don’t get me wrong, having cancer is AWFUL, but the extent that our culture encourages ppl with diseases (Esp cancer) to ignore the needs of other ppl in their lives is unhealthy imo. Social obligation is an important part of being alive.
hagofhags said: You might want to listen to the most recent Dear Sugar podcast. It’s all about friendship and what we need in them and how to handle needs and stuff. Also hugs. Friendships can be rough.
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glossylalia said: I hate that for you honey. I wish that was something she felt like she could talk with you about vs behind your back.
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powerfulfemalecharacter said: I am so sorry, love. It’s a terrible place to be in, emotionally and physically and mentally. I can’t speak to her experience but I’ve been on both sides of this and I’m here to listen.
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myeyesarebrightindisguise said: bb. text me! i am always here and i text a TON! I know what it’s like to feel like you are there for everyone and no one repays the favor. you deserve to be top priority, too! hang in there with BFF. I’m sure cancer is causing her issues.
alfa-limalimon said: :-( I’m sorry to hear that.
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