That autism feel when you’ve trained yourself enough so that your social interactions are akin to those of neurotypical people and it’s not as hard to socialize as it used to be, but it still takes every fiber of your being to get through your day. Then when you occasionally slip up, people look at you like you’ve suddenly shape-shifted into something else or the like. And then you’re afraid to tell people ‘cause, when you do, they’re all “But you don’t ACT autistic!” and you don’t know how to tell them that you work your soul off everyday to be able to function in both school and a rather large family with both huge sensory issues via sound and fluctuations between non-verbal and excess-verbal periods at the drop of a hat.