it is astonishing how much hate you can spew about women before someone (a woman) meekly steps up and says “maybe can you probably please stop saying that? if you want to?” and she’s putting her life on the line trying to defend her sisters. men adore this. it’s a free circus for them.
it’s true that men tell the truth about patriarchy all the time. i realized yesterday that the phrase “boys will be boys” is this. it’s literally saying “boys are inherently violent and rapey and despicable and they WILL hurt you”. holy shit. men themselves are capable of realizing this, which is why we must never let them group if we can ever help it (also why “brotherhood” is such a bullshit lie–men are always going to prioritize men over women, regardless of circumstances. white men will treat nonwhite men better than a white woman any day, and “brotherhood” is just a politically correct way of telling women not to intrude on the boys’ clubs because it’s not up to us to tell men how to behave, unless it is, which it isn’t, but it will be someday. oy vey)
i also got thinking about men and sex. the guy i slept with a few months ago didn’t want me to touch him anywhere he wasn’t getting off on it (idiot) and while he was fairly decent as far as men are concerned, i realized that men don’t want us to touch them all over because that’s for them to do to us. they consider it demeaning to be touched all over and made love to. they consider sex a violation. that’s all it is to them, and frankly i don’t really care to experience an exception to this rule, if there is one, firsthand. if you’re with a man long enough eventually he’ll want to piv you and there’s no way in hell i’m going to let that happen to me.
realizing how scummy and awful men are has been wearing me down but i’m so glad i know the truth. it confirms everything i’d known but not realized and hadn’t been able to put a name to. men are inherently awful. that’s it. my inherent trait of being all or nothing and male-excluding has been completely right all along. (that’s also why i love astrology. it validates my bizarreness)