I’d just like to say I’m hoping there’s a day when mental health is taken more seriously. As someone who’s suffered from two mental disorders, I am extremely frustrated how they’re looked upon by the general public. Because you can’t see depression or an anxiety disorder on someone, people just tell you to toughen up or get over it and don’t really understand what you’re going through. I’ve broken three bones and gone through several physical pains and even have lost someone close to me, but I can tell you nothing compares at all to battling with your own mind every second of every day.

The worst part is when your personality conflicts with what you’re going through. I know a couple people here have commented on me always making jokes and people have said that irl too. But at the same time people irl have also made fun of me because my personality might be a little different from those are perceived as funny. “I just hide behind the tears of a clown” in Eminem’s “Beautiful” is probably tied for my second favorite lyrics with the chorus of Soundtrack 2 My Life. It’s also frustrating that I know that if people knew the truth about mental disorders people would be much more understanding and compassionate. I posted my story in much more detail on my college’s secrets facebook page anonymously and it got over 200 likes, one of the most liked posts I had ever seen. But that was it. I guarantee you nothing changed about those 200+ people who just clicked like. They were just like “wow that sucks” and moved on with their life. They weren’t any more compassionate to others and probably wouldn’t even remember the post if they saw it now.

There have been some users here who I have beefed with and obviously don’t like me. I just want to say to remember that’s there a real live person you’re replying to. I know this was brought up in the HEATROCK disaster, also. And in real life it would be cool if more people were more compassionate toward each other and understanding what other people go through. “Actions have reactions, don’t be quick to judge / you may not know the hardships people don’t speak of.” This especially hits home for me because there are a lot of people who know me irl at college who would never have guess that I made that post to the secrets page because I don’t show it. I’ve told a few close people to me what I’m going through but nobody can really understand it unless they experience it. I was pretty normal until about two years ago when things slowly started going downhill because of a couple of bad personal experiences and family issues. I think I was always at a high risk because of genetics or whatever and a few life experiences just put me over the edge. In the past two years I literally haven’t gone 15 minutes at any point without it crossing my mind and it made me quit the sport I loved and had played for over a decade.

To anyone out there struggling with depression or an anxiety disorder out there, I just want you to know that I really feel for you and you’re not alone. Get help.

I wanted to say this because this is going to be my last day on this sub. With college starting up again, my desire to focus on other things, and my frustration with some things about this sub, I realized being on this sub was doing me more harm than good. I do want to thank you guys for expanding my musical tastes and wish you all the best. I will definitely miss seeing and interacting with some of the regulars that I got to know here. I also want to congratulate the mods. Considering this sub is approaching a quarter of a million, it's pretty amazing how good this sub still is.

I may be back here at some point in the future with a different account but that’s all for me for now.

-NO_NEW_FRIENDS

TLDR: I hope there's a day when mental health is taken more seriously and not looked down upon by the public. I'm out

EDIT: I got a lot more shit for this than I expected. I thought people would want to know when a regular was leaving, because I would have (ie when dhruv left unexpectedly with no warning)