also also, since I figure you are angry at someone in particular for checking out on you that way: When gramma is end stage cancer, suffering, everyone tsktsks and comments on how we dont even let dogs suffer that way. Gramma sometimes checks herself out and no one really feels angry at her. Well, people can suffer in less obvious ways. Mental illness is as real as cancer. You have no idea what that person was going through. What horrendous suffering must it take to override that all-powerful instinct to keep on living? I've known a few people that have committed suicide and its personally devastating but you have to get over your anger at that person. Maybe if you felt the depth of their suffering you would be horrified at yourself that you expected them to go through that to spare you hurt? Even the weakest creatures fight to live and to end that willingly must take a lot. You can't judge them because you don't know. Just let it go. Whatever they were going through is over for them and you have to move beyond it.