i’ve been doing this thing recently where i go out and ride my bike around. you know, for physical fitness and for the sake of having something to do. anyway.
everyday before i leave, i say to myself, “should i be doing this alone?” and most people would probably think that thought crosses my mind because i’m worried about falling down or getting hit by a car without anyone there to help me, were something to happen.
but really, the only reason i ever think it, is because i’m afraid of being stopped on the side of a road by a man.
just think about that. realize how incredibly sad and pathetic that is. i know the chances of me falling and getting hurt are probably way higher than being stopped and hurt by a stranger. but i can’t help it.
and i don’t only feel this fear when i go for a bike ride. it’s practically all the time. i rarely feel safe now when i’m by myself outside of my apartment.
i hate that i live in a world where i have to feel this way every day.