ALRIGHT COCKSUCKERS LISTEN UP BECAUSE IT’S TIME TO GET YOUR MOTHERFUCKING KNOWLEDGE ON ABOUT SELF-HARM!!!!!

BELIEVE IT OR NOT, THERE ARE MORE REASONS FOR HURTING ONESELF THAN SELF-LOATHING, JUSTIFYING EMOTIONAL PAIN, ATTENTION MONGERING, OR WHATEVER THE FUCK HAVE YOU.

SOME PEOPLE GODDAMN LIKE TO GET HURT.

ALL THROUGHOUT PUBERTY, I WAS CONFUSED AS SHIT ABOUT MY SEXUALITY, IDENTITY AS A PERSON, AND PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING. I’VE NEVER BEEN FOND OF MYSELF, AND I’VE ALWAYS BEEN A LITTLE MORE THEN SELF-CONSCIOUS. SO WHEN I HEARD FROM A FRIEND, WHO WAS ALSO DEPRESSED, THAT HURTING YOURSELF MADE LIFE EASIER TO DEAL WITH, I DECIDED TO GIVE IT A TRY.

AND AYYYY JESUS CRISTO DID IT.

I TOOK A RAZOR TO MY SKIN, BURNED AND ASPHYXIATED MYSELF, THE WHOLE NINE YARDS. AND THE WHOLE TIME, SOCIETY TOLD ME, WELL, THAT’S AWFUL, YOU’RE ONLY DOING THIS BECAUSE YOU’RE CONFUSED AND DEPRESSED AND YOU NEED TO STOP. AND YOU KNOW WHAT, FOR A WHILE, I DID FEEL BAD ABOUT IT. I FELT EVEN WORSE ABOUT MYSELF, AND THOUGHT, DAMN, I MUST BE A HORRIBLE FUCKING PERSON, I MUST BE WEAK, I MUST WANT ATTENTION, AND WHATEVER DUMBASSES TRY TO GENERALIZE THIS SHIT TO BE ABOUT.

AND ONE DAY, WHEN I WAS COVERED IN BLOOD WITH MY HANDS DOWN MY PANTS, I WAS LIKE, WAIT A FUCKING SECOND.

YEAH, I’M DEPRESSED. BUT THAT’S NOT WHY!!!!!! I’M A SEXUAL DEVIANT!!!!!! EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE NOW!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!! (OF COURSE, IT WASN’T *THAT* INSTANTANEOUSLY THAT I REALIZED EVERYTHING, BUT YOU GET THE POINT.)

AND WHEN I EXPLAINED THIS TO THE COUNSELORS, TO THE PSYCHIATRISTS, THEY DIDN’T BELIEVE ME. THEY INSISTED IT WAS BECAUSE I HATED MYSELF, AND THAT I WAS TOO YOUNG TO BE SURE OF MY SEXUALITY, AND SOME OF THEM EVEN INSISTED THAT I WAS MENTALLY ILL DESPITE CONSENSUAL AND SAFE SEXUAL MASOCHISM NOT BEING CLASSIFIED AS A MENTAL ILLNESS SINCE 1994. IT WASN’T EVEN UNTIL I THREATENED TO SUE MY HIGH SCHOOL THAT THEY ALLOWED ME TO WEAR SHORT-SLEEVED SHIRTS, BECAUSE SOMEHOW MY SCARS AND MY ENTIRE GODDAMN BODY (*MY* BODY, WHICH BELONGS TO ME, WHICH I CAN DO WITH AS I PLEASE), WERE “SHAMEFUL” AND “DISRUPTIVE” AND “WRONG”.

THE POINT IS, IF SOMEONE SELF-HARMS, DON’T TRY TO SWOOP IN AND “RESCUE” THEM FROM THEIR “HARMFUL PSYCHE” JUST BECAUSE YOU’RE A SELF-RIGHTEOUS DICKWAD. CONSIDER, FOR ONE GODDAMN SECOND, THAT IT MIGHT NOT BE ANY OF YOUR BUISINESS!! AND DON’T JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS. DON’T ASSUME. BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU ASSUME? YOU MAKE AN ASS OUT OF U AND ME.

HAHAHA. WORD PLAY. BUT SERIOUSLY, RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE’S RIGHT TO DO WHAT THEY WANT WITH THEIR OWN BODIES. I’M LOOKING AT YOU, HYPOCRITICAL TUMBLR RADFEMS.