first off this is a really #manipulative and gross question. secondly we live in a capitalist economy so even if we were paying for it with #money we made from having jobs (which neither of us can do during the #school year due to our disabilities) it would be depriving someone else of the same opportunity bc that’s how evil institutions like #capitalism work so basically even being alive is hurting other people. as for the money: we found cheaper bus tickets (a friend of mine recommended a cheaper bus service than the one my #mom had us using) so it’s $45 for a round trip with 25 bucks left for food and transportation for five days in New York (which is not an exceptional amount of money give how expensive everything is there). so yes we will be spending all the money we got on the trip. and look. I sympathize. I’m worried too. but beans and I both live with separation #anxiety and reoccurring thoughts of #suicide so seeing each other is more than just a fleeting issue. it’s the only time we’re going to see each other until august when I move so please don’t send either of us messages like this again.