I have done many things in life. I have travelled far and wide, and had some jobs that you might think are made up if I started listing them. I visited places that have since lost their purity and are no longer intact as they were when I first saw them. I was in navy for the most of my life. It’s a beautiful calling that allows you to see and experience things you otherwise probably wouldn’t even hear about. But as any other thing in life worth having it has its price.
It is a hard and unforgiving life, the sea is not for those weak of body or mind, it demands to be conquered or threatens to conquer you. The first time you take it lightly might just be your last.
The elements and the duties on board are constantly testing your endurance, pushing you to new limits, and that kind of life, validating as it may be, takes a great toll. You can’t hope to defy the untamable forces of nature and to emerge without the scars of that life long battle on your body and soul.I’m not complaining, I wouldn’t change any of the choices I have made if I had the chance, but as you grow older you start realizing that the battle has worn you out, and that even though you can still hear the calling you don’t have the strength to answer it. For a man such as myself there is nothing worse than the feeling of helplessness. And that is exactly how arthritis can make you feel
.I’ve suffered from some form of it for decades now; it is something you expect when you live out most of your life on the open sea. But as of recently it has gotten to the point that I’m unable to move without feeling excruciating pain. I have tried to combat it with everything you can think of, and probably just as many things you cannot even imagine, but the results were either short lasting or practically nonexistent.I have recently tried using Vicodin to that effect, and so far, I am completely satisfied, I even like the way it works, it usually doesn’t eliminate the pain, it just gives you the power to ignore it, there is something defiant and proud in it that really resonates with me. I can once again walk out to the shore without cringing and bending my back, not like a conquered man but as a victor.