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Wednesday, September 23, 20096:46 PM
Outcast.  I was devastated when i heard the news. I was like, rooted to the ground. How unfair life is. How easily life can be taken away. How easily somebody can just go away, forever, and never come back. Maybe some of you had already heard this. The body of Yoshito Usui, the author of the hugely popular comedic manga and anime called Crayon Shin-chan, was found dead at the bottom of a cliff in Gunma Prefecture on Saturday. It appeared to have been an accident — his backpack full of hiking gear was found about 50 yards away, and it was near a hiking trail with no rails. His camera, found with his belongings, had a photo that looked like it was taken right by the cliff. He was 51. According to his wife, he left the house on the morning of September 11th and never returned. I just read his newest Crayon Shin-chan not long ago. I didn't know it would be the last.   Rest in Peace, Mr.Yoshito Usui.Crayon Shin-chan will stay alive within us forever. ----- You don't know how much you mean to me. You don't know how much i appreciate you. You don't know how important you are to me. I once told you, and you chose not to believe. You cast my feelings aside so easily. I'd always thought that things wouldn't change no matter what. But i'm wrong. You don't need me anymore. *Assuming 'you' being plural. And as for you, how am i suppose to tell you? I don't even dare to imagine your reaction. I'm scared that what you think of me might change. I'm afraid. TOP OF PAGE.
Tuesday, September 22, 20096:45 PM
Away.  Didn't blogged yesterday because of insufficient of time. Was one hell of a trip. Early in the morning dad wana go to one of his Malay friend's house, because it's Raya and everything, and all of us aka mum, choco and me went along. Mum wana go to Kuala Selangor for the beach and seafood later too. Reluctantly --because my schedule was messed up-- i went, hoping to at least enjoy or something. Anyway, reached the Malay's gigantic home and he wasn't in, so we straight away started our journey to Kuala Selangor. And then and then, when we were on the way there, there was a massive traffic jam all the way to Kuala Selangor. Dad refused to go, because he said we will probably reach there in 2 or 3 hours time due to the stupid jam. And he said we should just get some lunch and go home. I was like, wtf, they ruin my schedule and now they're sending us home without letting us enjoy or something? Plus, i was reading in the car a moment earlier and i got car-sick and felt like puking the entire time. What was my sacrifice for? Choco was car-sick too, and we wouldn't accept this brutal faith, never! So after lunch in a dirty Bak Kut Teh store with no Bak Kut Teh --it's all sold-- we persuaded dad to bring us to Midvalley. The schedule is already ruined, so why the hell not? But dad refused too, because he said too many cars, can't find parking etc etc. But finally he relented and brought us to 1 Utama. That was my first time going there. And it's humongous. Love the smell of a shopping centre. (: But of course, our center of attention was given to MPH. Bought books, definitely.   Mine: The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger, Plain Truth by Jodi Picoult and Dracula by Bram Stoker ( Love the cover, darn cool. ).Love the MPH there, seriously. Super organized, books all wrapped up nicely and arranged according to lettering! God, felt really comfortable there. ;D Ah, speaking about God. There was a conversation between us and dad that send me into heaps of laughter. I don't know why, but at one point in the car i said this: Oh My God. Then Dad heard it, and started mumbling and grumbling: God? God?! God 给你吃东西咩? ( Did God gave you food?! ) I was like, stunned. Roflmao, he was so darn religious and now he said God didn't gave us food. He's insisting that he's the one working so hard for our food and somehow saying Oh My God trigger his annoyance. Me and Choco was laughing like shit. =D That was practically the whole day. Studied as much as i can to compensate for the day. Slept late. Darn. =/ Okay. Now here's an announcement. It may be good news to you, or bad news, or neutral. I'm not gona use the comp so frequently this month. Reason is, undoubtedly, freakin' 3rd term examination. And it won't be long before you see my Notice that say i'll be MIA for 2 weeks. I hate it seriously. But i really don't have the time. My deepest apologies. =( P.S. It's really hard for me! I have to give up Bleach temporarily too! D= P.P.S Not frequently doesn't mean i won't use it okay. I'll blog alternatively maybe. I'll update as much as possible. P.P.P.S But all the Friendster / Facebook request's might have to wait. I'm so sorry. TOP OF PAGE.
Sunday, September 20, 20096:16 PM
"Busy-ness."  Today was darn tired and stressful. Had to complete my bc and igcse essay due to choco's 'Finish-homework-first-before-studying' concept. I did the draft for both, what's left is to copy them in the book, which will really take a lot of time and effort. I know it's only copying, but considering the length, i'm praying for my fingers now. But i finally manage to finish planning my schedule, thank God. But that's just planning, i haven't started making it real yet. =X Friggin' projects which can't seem to be done, friggin' hot water which boiled my hands, friggin' geography which made my throat sore from memorizing, friggin' 舞林大道 that i missed watching, friggin' tuitions that i never seem to love, friggin' jazz that kept getting canceled, friggin' holidays that had me stuck at home, friggin' exam that had me complaining like a maniac. I can't stop complaining. Shit. =( To cheer myself up, i went looking for some crazy stuffs and i succeeded in finding one that makes me go 'wow'. And i'm sharing it with you guys here! Ever heard of or seen an upside-down waitress before?      Whoa. I didn't know how she can stand being hanged upside-down like that without getting a red face and still can to smile like she's perfectly comfortable there. And she had to pour drinks for customers too. I would die rather than get that job. Crazy people around the world. But still it's amazing. (: ----- Has it ever occurred to you that i might want to take a step back? Did you ever think before that i might wana step away? My brain and my heart are having this major disagreement right now. Brain says run. Heart says stay. I don't wana run away, but my legs seems to be moving on its own. It's an instinct. Run away from anything that might hurt you. Escape, and you will be safe. TOP OF PAGE.
Saturday, September 19, 20092:28 PM
Tears.  Holiday sucks. Seriously. All i do is stare at the text book. And i'm bored like shit. And i cannot use the freakin' computer twice. And i have to give up watching Boys Over Flowers. And i cannot go shopping. And i have to attend tuitions. And i cannot seem to finish the maths homework. And countless of things. Okay, actually it's not that bad. I'm half-exaggerating. (: Gotta tuition in about, few hours time. Yikes, bc again. Sorry to say but i don't really have stuffs to update these days. You're probably gona read about exam exam exam study study study bored bored bored dozens of time. To compensate for the lack of updates, i shall update some strange pictures. =P        For me, there's some eerie, creepy feel for some of those pics, others are amazing where i would do a double-take at it and smile. (: P.S. I didn't watch Bleach for 2 days already. Darn, i miss Bleach! ----- Do you know that it hurts when you said that? You may said it out of humour, but it hurts because deep down i know it's the truth. At that moment, i wanted to scream at you. I wanted to shout at you and say that what you said about me can be applied on yourself, too. But i didn't. I didn't because i didn't want you to go through this feeling. This feeling that the sadness too great can destroy you within seconds. This feeling that you need to build a wall around yourself, making yourself numb from reality, telling yourself 'I don't care' when it's so obvious that you're lying. This feeling that you lay crumpled by fear, scared and alone. You judge me even before i finish saying what i was saying. You made an assumption even before you know what had actually happened. I wanted to tell you. Really, i wanted to tell you so much. But i didn't. I had to force my words back. I had to. Because i didn't want to ruin anything anymore. Anxiety choked me. I can't sleep. I can't breathe. I can't do anything except to cry. I cried to the point that my eyes aches along with my heart. I cried to the point that there's no more tears left for me to cry. But you did not know. Even if you knew, you wouldn't care, would you? You wouldn't give a damn. TOP OF PAGE.
Friday, September 18, 20096:32 PM
Spree.  Holiday! Half-studied half-napped at my desk. Was slacking around, waiting for time to pass, opening the geography book just to make myself not feel guilty. ( I did read a few paragraphs okay. ) Finally mum's back, and the trio set off to The Mines aka Capital Retail for lunch and shopping.  Outfit. Planning to buy shirts/shoes, hence the casualty.Lunch at Esquire Kitchen, mum's pick. She's totally a rice person, typical Chinese. And there's a special set which only cost about RM38.  Pepsi float shared by choco and I. Yum. Long bean thing. Too sweet. Too much food seasonings. Tofu, not my type of food. Lemon Chicken. Average tasting.Anyway, then choco and I went to shop and shop and shop. Even though most of it were just window shopping, we're still having fun. Bought a couple of cute tees too. Ah, i bought this nail thingy. I have no idea what it's called.  Here. Just follow the sequence --Shape, Smooth, Buff, Polish-- and you can get shiny nails just like you put nail polish, even thought you didn't. Totally chemical free and effective. XiiaoBabe bought it to school the other day, and i was really fascinated by it. (:  Had lotsa fun, shopping really ignite my senses. =)P.S. Ran into a certain someone in Kitschen. You know who i'm talking about. ;D TOP OF PAGE.
Thursday, September 17, 20096:10 PM
Missed.  School officially declared holiday, till 28th of September if i'm not mistaken. I'm not particularly happy anyway. Really need to start studying now, exam's freakin coming. In fact, brought lotsa books home, even though i doubt i'll be able to finish everything. Btw, gotta tuition in about... few minutes? one hour? Depends on the teacher, no idea what time she'll suddenly pop up. So i guess that's it for today. ( Gotta keep this really short you know, 'cause it's raining and the internet might go boom any minute from now. ) Happy holidays to all. (: P.S. Happy Birthday to Chee Ren! I didn't forget okay? =) Wish you all the best in everything. TOP OF PAGE.
Wednesday, September 16, 20096:08 PM
Peace.  First and foremost, i wana wish HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOCHA aka AGNES! (:  Just want you to know that you've always been a great friend, and i appreciate you a lot. Love you lots. (:Talking about Mocha, she's really weird. Today's her birthday, and she gave me a present, when it should be the other way round. Well, it's my belated birthday present. Thanks Mocha! I'll get your present soon too. =D Have a look at what she gave me.  Ah! My heart melted when i saw it. The face! x_x Photo courtesy of Choco. Like the feel. (:Omg, it's soo darn cute, adorable, downright kawaii! Was shrieking when i saw it, along with the shrieks and screams of most of the ladies in our class. Yeah, it's those kind of fake bread look-a-like, with the smell and texture exactly of a bread. The only difference is that it's not edible. If anyone of you remembered, i gave one to Yunnie on her birthday. (: Thanks a lot! I've always wanted one of these, and i didn't wana buy it myself 'cause i think it's like a waste, and so i've always been waiting for someone to buy it for me, and you did! Thank you thank you thank you. =D Btw, here's the update on yesterday's night. It was a typical Tuesday night, and we went for belly dancing as usual. I was struck with determination to at least get to Akon's Bellydancer, so i swear i will do it properly. Anyway, the point is that we bought another cake! Another routine that me and choco wana keep. A cake every Tuesday. Sounds really tempting, ain't it? This week's cake: Fair Lady Cake ( White Chocolate ). This week's wordings: Demon Love Hime. =)   Ate it this morning, tasted delicious just as expected. Sweet. ;D----- They didn't know that i was lying. They'll never know. ----- I think that I love him more, more then life itself. I know that I'll never find nothing close to him Never gonna stop, I'll love him till I drop, ain't never gonna let him go whoa He drives me so crazy I so love my baby The way he be makin' me feel Doesn't everybody wanna fall in love? Doesn't everybody wanna need someone? Remember when you told me that you didn't have no one You would have give anything just to have someone So don't hate on me cause He's so good to me; He's so sweet to me, I know that you don't think I know enough But doesn't everybody wanna fall in love? Kristina DeBarge - Doesn't Everybody Want to Fall in Love. TOP OF PAGE.
Tuesday, September 15, 20096:44 PM
Surprise.  Dad is finally back from China! He bought tonnes of clothes for us, as requested. But then there's only one or two of it that i kinda like. Guess you can't really believe your dad in buying teenage girl's clothes? =) School today was okay, minus some serious dislike for some ugly bitches and their bitchiness. ( It seems to be a long time since i called someone bitch in my blog, isn't it? ) We shall skip that part. Btw, just in case you don't know, i've finish reading The Picture of Dorian Gray, which rocks like hell, and started reading Starting Over by Tony Parsons.Hope it's gona turn out great. Not expecting any bombastic impact though, to say the truth.  Btw, i wana mention that i really hate the school management now for giving us crap teachers. I had wanted to say this for a long time. They didn't even bother to inspect the teachers carefully, see if they can really teach or not. I think i'm just gona flunk my 3rd term examination. =( And one more thing: I miss Yunnie too. Loads of things wana tell her, which i seem to forget when i actually saw her. =X P.S. The freakin' geography and civic project is bugging me. Fuck. =/ P.P.S To Queenie: If you're looking, i wana tell you that i'm thinking of your 'yo,yo' post and i'm laughing. ;D ----- I'm surprised at myself for being able to watch everything in such a calm state. I'm too calm to the point that i'm scared of myself. What's wrong with me? I do care, right? TOP OF PAGE.
Monday, September 14, 20096:06 PM
Wary.  School was kinda unbearable without Yunnie. But she took the initiative in visiting us after school anyway. =) I've got lotsa gossips/things/craps to tell you honey. Hope we can have a longer time to talk to each other. I miss you so much. =( Anyway, here's the update for yesterday. Being a Sunday, it was kinda boring, and i'm tired of books, so choco and I decided on watching a movie. We're trying to make it into a routine. A movie every Sunday? Sounds great to me. (: After a few rounds of AVP vs Wolverine vs Blood vs Knowing vs Alvin and the Chipmunks, the last ones left were Knowing and Alvin. Me and choco debated, then after a recommendation from bro, Alvin and the Chipmunks won! =)  Throughout the movie choco was complaining about the voices of the chipmunks, which she find irritating, but which i find somehow cute. Whenever the chipmunks started singing, choco will groan like she got a migraine or something, and kept repeating that we should have watched Knowing instead. Aside from that, the movie went on okay and it's really cute and funny. Love it. ( Just in case if you didn't realize, that was my first time watching Alvin and the Chipmunks. ) At night, as promised a few days ago, me, choco, Fun and 'Uncle' Justin went to Jusco for a movie. Okay, the main point was meeting with Fun, 'Uncle' somehow tagged along like usual. (: We were going to watch The Ugly Truth. ;D  We were laughing over lame jokes at the car, just like we used to. Anyway, something really amusing happened when we were at the ticket booth. The Ugly Truth was 18PL, which i only realized when Fun gave me the ticket. But no worries, i thought we could sneak in as we've done it countless times before. ( Yeah, you should have guessed what happened by now. ) When i gave the woman my ticket, --She's Indian I think. Not being a racist, just mentioning so that you can construct a better picture of her and her accent if you're picturing this scene.-- and she looked at the ticket. Then she looked at me, took a double-take, and asked: Kamu umur berapa? Well, damn my spontaneity, because my hesitancy betrayed me, not to add that i don't look like 18 years old at all, anyone with eyes and brain can see. I was really hesitating of what to say, and Fun said: Dia 17. Sudah mau 18. And the woman asked: Boleh saya tengok IC? Of course i say i didn't bring it. But well, we're looking really suspicious. So the woman insisted that i cannot enter the cinema. She asked choco her age too, but she kinda believed when choco said she's 18. So after some arguing and pleading, the woman went to see the manager and they relented, but only once, she say. --Not that she'll know it next time.-- So we succeeded! =) Next time i should not hesitate, that just made me more suspicious. FGS, who would think twice when you're just stating your age? But then... I don't think i can downright lie in front of her. I'll just feel guilty after wards. The movie was great, really hilarious. Love it lots. After the movie, we decided to go to The Heritage for supper and a chat. After debating about Old Times Kopitiam vs Gasoline, the former won. We sat there and talk and laughed like shit. It's really a great fun going out with Fun. It's like, we can say anything and it'll turn out hilarious in the end. Feels happy to have a real long laughing session since god-knows-when.  Milo me and choco shared. Tasted like shit, really. My Milo is way better than theirs. The peanut toast me and choco shared. Not really delicious actually. Fun and Choco. =D Fun and me! ;D 'Uncle' Justin. (;At around 10.30pm we went home, and put a full stop to the day. Had so much fun. =D P.S Lucas reminded me to mention this: 'That person who assumed that he's finish doing what he's suppose to do but actually he haven't, who asked advanced questions where he expect us to know, and not even providing the answer after wards is a lowlife bastard. 3 freakin' chapters in a day? Darn amazing, but downright stupid.' ( Our class would understand this. ) ----- The first time i looked at the situation and say 'I don't mind. It's okay.' I'm glad that at least there's a part of me being grateful. But when i say 'I don't mind', do i really mean it? Or what i wanted to say is actually 'I don't care'? But i know i care. ( I guess? ) ----- The Fear comes, but never goes. It's always there. Like right now. It's sitting at the corner, waiting, watching. Waiting for the right moment to pounce. Waiting for the right moment to destroy all i had right now. Is it really there, or am i just thinking too much? Is everything of this my imagination? Just a mere picture i construct in my head? If so, then how can the Fear be so real? It terrified me to the point that I can't breathe. TOP OF PAGE.
Sunday, September 13, 200911:25 AM
Worry.  Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere. --Glenn Turner. Yeah, you see, it's early in the morning and i don't have anything to update about, so i'll keep this short. Good news today is that bc tuition was canceled. Bad news is that I don't think i'll be able to study today, fuck. Gona watch a movie with choco later, and will be going to cinema at the evening with Fun. Looking forward to it. (: P.S. Watched 舞林大道 yesterday night till 1.00 a.m. Great show. Btw, i'm really looking forward to this year's Battleground 舞极限. ;D |
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