
Now I feel solitude and loneliness.
My mind just becomes melancholic though I drank a lot of coffee.
If it is possible, I do want to become a existence like Lucifer in Milton's "Paradise Lost".
Even if the fate of the world enslaves me, I should fight against the fate of the world. Even if I become a miserable loser.
I believe that there is no fate that transcends human.
Even if human has each fate.
Without value that we live in this moment, the world doesn't have the significance of existence.
Lucifer praises human who lives in the limited time, not god's eternity....
However, I fear that I am able to have just a limited life only.
I have fallen into the idea of existentialism now.