If you do not agree with what I said, please point out and we can talk about it.
My conclusion comes from my analysis. What I see from your response is that you only have a conclusion, but no knowledge about what that conclusion based on. I would ask how you convince me that your government didn't do anything to make you believe that only democracy is good.
I'm not living in China; instead I'm living in a democratic country. If I lived in China, I would be a democrat for sure. Fortunately, I have the opportunity to see both sides. From what I saw, I use my brain (not head) to think and come up with the above analysis.
And please, read it carefully, I never say totalitarian is better than democracy. What I said is that different country, different culture; different time in the history has different condition for either democracy or totalitarian. Don't just keep the preconception in your head that democracy is always good, totalitarian is always bad.