Today was my mom’s death anniversary.
I didn’t wanna see anyone. In the end, maybe it’s better I didn’t.
I hate when I look at previous posts and they are so pathetic.
Even though they are my feelings.
I’ll probably have to hide those again soon.
I just want to thank you all for the kind, comforting comments…
Even though I don’t think I truly deserve any.
To think that many people post for the first time just in order to give me an encouragement….
I should be very grateful.
I’m so heartless for not giving personal replies.
Even though I don’t know any of you personally… you took the time to write these things…
I don’t know what to think at the moment.
Nor what to do.
But I know I’m a pathetic mess.
I’ve actually been working on reuploading mp3s here, but I apologize…that will still have to wait.
I’m sorry.
I know it sounds even more pathetic but…
This blog is the only thing that I have.
So I’m sorry if I’m using it in the wrong way.
I’m clinging to it.
Who knows what’s waiting beyond the door tomorrow.
But at this point, it looks bad.