ゴキブリ。
３～４センチぐらいでした。＞Ｏ＜
I know that they are very few in number, but some people still come to visit my blog, or so the statistic say. I feel bad that these few people come back to see if I’ll post again, and probably keep their hopes up while I don’t do a thing.
So what’s with this sudden update?
I’ve been wanting to post in a while but I don’t really have a reason to.
I have nothing incredible to update about.
I also still can’t record anything at my current location so….
It feels slightly pointless to keep up a blog where I can’t even show anything I do to anyone.
Also, I made my posts vanish once more, I’ve been pretty much whining here almost everyday so…
I was sick of all that and decided I should just stick to post about my personal whinings to my private LiveJournal account.
So what is there to say here?
1-I am still alive.
2-I am still in Japan.
3-I’m currently working hard at finding jobs. I started one the other day but it’s very few hours so I will need to keep looking for a 2nd one to be able to survive financially. In other words, it’s only the beginning.
4-I am still looking for the appropriate kinds of auditions. I have a few things that are still in the mist, I don’t know if anything will work out or lead me anywhere, but I’ll do my best.
5-I am still living in a dormitory for foreigners and I still hate it (sorry…haha).
6-My spoken japanese still sucks! But I want to improve sooo much. I can’t afford going to a japanese language school, but I do my best to keep my ears open and talk when possible. I also try to study from the books I have when there is time. I need to learn much more vocabulary and grammar!!! Understanding is a good and useful thing but…talking is much more required if I want to stay here, I know that.
I won’t admit I’m defeated until I really see no other way.
I hate the dormitory but…. I love the atmosphere of Japan.
I’m getting used to this place…
So many little things that I don’t want to let go of right now.
I don’t want to go back to Canada.
Especially not now that some things might be coming up for me.
I don’t want to have to go back right before I can have these chances.
一生懸命頑張りたいと思います！
-HIMEKA